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| 02:50pm 18/06/2004 |
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Once again, just for my own benefit:
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| .CINDERELLA. |
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| 12:12am 13/01/2004 |
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Yes the journal is still over-
BUT for all you non-Round Rockers, out there:
Cinderella
January 15, 16, & 17 - 7:30 PM
Round Rock ISD PAC
Admission: $6 students, $8 adults
And um if you have some sort of brain damage or live under a freakin' rock and don't know what the story is about-
just go die.
No I'm kidding.
All the more reason to come see it. |
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| 05:28pm 29/12/2003 |
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I don't really talk to any of the people who read this anymore.
Maybe we drifted, I dunno.
Anyway, I'm ending my journal.
Bye. |
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| I'm sick with the flu and hating every minute. |
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| 06:26pm 24/12/2003 |
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I know this is stupid but I'm just a little bit sad.
This is the first year where I won't be going to Christmas Mass with my family....
And I know a lot of you think this ISN'T a big deal-
but to me it really is.
This is what Christmas is about to me.
And this year....well I just won't get to celebrate in the ways I would've hoped.
I really hate the flu.
Guess I got more than I bargained for this year.
Merry Christmas everyone.
Caitlinfluenzally yours,
CG |
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| I'm so dumb. |
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| 08:42pm 21/12/2003 |
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So dumb.
I am.
So dumb.
I thought something would happen.
But I'm sure I'm just being naive.
Ugh.
Everyone told me I didn't have a chance.
Why why why why why did I think I did?
Everyone knows all boys do is lead you on.
I always fall for the flirts, dammit.
Oh well, at least this time he was straight.
Stupidly yours,
CG |
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| Just saying hello. |
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| 07:20pm 19/12/2003 |
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Haven't written a REAL entry in a while...
Hmmm....
Glad that school is out for a while! REALLY glad.
Hopefully I'll get some me-time and also time to see a lot of you over the break.
Tomorrow going to see a kids'Acting show, that should be interesting.
Also beginning my Christmas shopping tomorrow. Yes it's true - just starting.
I love being so last-minute. Keeps me on my toes.
Hopefully I'll have something interesting to report someday.
Boringly yours,
CG |
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| Is this even real!? |
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| 07:19pm 16/12/2003 |
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Never thought I'd feel this way again about anyone! But I do - and I'm the happiest I've been in a year or so. Ooooooh I am so hooked on you and I know it's soon to tell but I think this could go somewhere.
And somewhere is where I DEFINITELY want to go with you!
Infatuatedly yours,
CG |
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| I really can't get no satisfaction. |
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| 01:40am 14/12/2003 |
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"Okay, okay, okay, so listen! Listen! So then he goes, 'No matter what I do for you it never seems to be enough.' Ew! I can't believe he said that! You don't think I'm like that, do you?"
"Well you are...."
"WHAT?!?! Don't tell me you agree with him! Oh my God, OH MY GOD!"
"Well I mean one minute everything's fine and the next minute you're freaking out! It's like you're never satisfied!"
"Well I know I'm a little...picky, but hey...I just know what I want."
Although this DOES fit my life right now, this wasn't actual conversation.
Name what it's from and if you aren't Kristin McDonald you'll get a SpEcIaL pRiZe! |
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| Eat Up Kids. |
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| 10:54pm 10/12/2003 |
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An extraordinary tale from the dark nether world of cannibalism unfolded in a shocked German courtroom yesterday as a self-confessed eater of human flesh explained how he came to butcher and barbecue a computer software expert.
The trial of Armin Meiwes, a 42-year-old former soldier, is the first cannibal case in Germany since that of Fritz Haarmann, who killed at least 26 young men and drank their blood in the 1920s.
He was executed in 1925.
Meiwes, by contrast, is a thoroughly modern cannibal who used internet chatrooms to line up a parade of apparently willing would-be victims.
One, identified only as Matteo from Italy, wanted to be nailed to a St Andrew's Cross and have a flamethrower directed at his genitals.
Another wanted to be eaten in time for the Russian Orthodox Christmas.
A man identified as Andreas from Regensburg wanted to be collected in a cattle wagon, pushed into a cage in Meiwes's improvised attic "slaughter room" and given the chance to lick his bloodstained rubber boots.
An unidentified German living in London visited Meiwes and wanted to be handcuffed and have labels pinned to his body marking him out for butchery.
"Later we went to watch a film," Meiwes said. "I think it was Ocean's Eleven with George Clooney."
Some victims were rejected for being too fat. One allowed himself to be hung on a hook in Clingfilm awaiting slaughter. "He changed his mind and said it was too cold to be killed, so I drove him back to the station," Meiwes said. In the end, after more than 400 emails and hundreds of phone conversations, Meiwes settled on Bernd-Jurgen Brandes, a 43-year-old computer specialist from Berlin.
"I did nothing against his will," he said of his victim.
"He knew he could have stopped at any time, but he didn't. He wanted to die and to be eaten. He told me he had had the desire since he was a child to be slaughtered and eaten ... he was very intelligent, and I didn't see any sign that he was disturbed."
Meiwes, a fit-looking man with a ready smile for the gallery in the Kassel courtroom, argued that he was an instrument of Brandes's wish to commit suicide. His defence is that he "killed on request" - effectively a mercy killing, which carries a three-year jail term. Prosecutors argue that he committed sexually driven murder, and is likely to demand life imprisonment.
Several reporters left courtroom D103 to vomit or splash their faces with water. There were gasps from the public gallery as Meiwes described in a flat baritone how he amassed his catalogue of potential victims. In the event, only Brandes was sliced up and eaten.
Meiwes said Brandes signalled during a long email relationship that he wanted to be eaten. Meiwes used the pseudonym "Franky" in internet adverts that read: "If you are 18-25, you are my boy", or "Come to me, I'll eat your delicious flesh".
On the day of the killing he had collected Brandes from the local railway station. Brandes swallowed non-prescription sleeping pills and they drank tea together in the conservatory of the killer's sprawling but rundown half-timbered house in Rotenburg, close to Kassel.
The two men had already agreed that Brandes should be "nullified". The increasingly drowsy victim laid his penis on the kitchen table. Meiwes chopped it but failed to sever the organ. Brandes screamed with pain and told him to find a sharper knife. The operation was completed, the wound wrapped, and Meiwes proceeded to cook the severed penis.
"We had agreed to eat it half and half, but he was growing faint and couldn't wait for his half to be cooked through," Meiwes said. "So he tried to eat it more or less raw and of course it was too tough. This made him furious."
Meiwes said he had filmed the dismemberment; the video may be shown to the court later in the trial.
"It was important to him that his member be cut off and that he witness it. It gave him pleasure," Meiwes said.
Brandes lay in a bath and partially recovered. "He got out and said, 'If I survive until the morning let's have my testicles for breakfast'," Meiwes said.
That statement could prove important as the case develops over the next month.
It could indicate Brandes in fact wanted to live and sought mutilation not death.
State prosecutor Marcus Kohler claimed Meiwes always intended to kill and that he exploited a mental disorder that left Brandes with a death wish.
"Spurred by sexual motives", Kohler said, Meiwes had laid Brandes on a bench, stabbed him and hung his body from a hook in the ceiling of his kitchen.
Judge Volker Mutze struggled to keep some dignity in the court and refused to give details of the cannibal recipes found in Meiwes's home. However, the German magazine Stern reported in July that these included "penis in red wine" and "breaded young man's liver".
Meiwes, however, simply sauteed Brandes's penis with garlic, salt and pepper.
Meiwes described his eating of some 30kg of Brandes - during a long summer of barbecues - as an almost religious event. He was "internalising" a loving friend. "On the night of the killing I had the hope that part of his body would become part of mine; it was like Holy Communion," Meiwes said.
The court is now adjourned until Monday, and the case will continue at least until the middle of January. |
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| So Fucking Upset. |
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| 07:41am 10/12/2003 |
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I don't care how fucking minor you think this is I need to vent. So I have this fucking cold or whatever the hell it is and no matter how many fucking times I ask my parents to call the doctor they never fucking remember so I've had this damn thing for two fucking weeks now. Anyway, I can't ever sleep with this bitch of a sickness so I'm always fucking exhausted because no matter how early I go to sleep I just lie there coughing up my fucking lung and hoping that I get fall asleep before 3 AM. This morning I woke up at fucking 6 AM so I could go in early for something, and I just came downstairs to find that my mom just FUCKING LEFT ME. No "goodbye", no "I'm leaving" - NOTHING. And this shouldn't be a big thing, but since I haven't had any FUCKING sleep in the last two weeks I'm beyond the point of run-down, physically and emotionally. This just tipped me over the edge, and that is why I am sitting here fucking crying out of my anger.
Really Fucking Madly Yours,
CG
P.S. I don't think I've ever felt the need to cuss this many times. |
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| Hmmm... |
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| 10:26pm 07/12/2003 |
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You know something? I sort of wish I could go back to the way things were last year.
When I had just no real acquaintances or casual friends and just a bunch of super close ones...
But now I feel like I know half of Austin and I have just a select few that I can confide in.
And I even seem to feel those few drifting....
Isn't it strange how one day you can suddenly notice a person has changed, but then you look back on the past few months and realize they have BEEN changing...and you just couldn't see it. Until now - when it's too late.
I hate the feeling of being too late.
Regretfully yours,
CG |
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| Attention all students of the male persusasion...lend me your ears.... |
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| 07:36am 03/12/2003 |
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::Ahem::
Dear Boys,
If you have no intention of pursuing a girl, then do not lead her on. It is cruel and makes you look bad, too, because you know she will tell all her friends. And if you are a jerk and want to lead her on anyway, then at least tell her you have a girlfriend at some point rather than making her find out through other people and seeing you guys making out in the hallway. Because, once again, that's just cruel.
Warningly yours,
CG
P.S. If the boy-in-question happens to stumble upon, read and decipher this, and then decides he is still going to lead me on, be forewarned: If you ever touch me again I'll kick you in your male source of pride and joy - which I hear isn't something to really be THAT proud of.
That is all. |
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| Look! Now I'm just like everyone else!!! |
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| 11:24pm 30/11/2003 |
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Dear World,
I've decided to become a clone of everyone. So look!!:
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
Yaaaaaaay!
And by the way, Phil Aulie won that completion of my Saturday night, I just haven't put it up yet 'cause I was waiting to see if any others would enter. AND if you still wanna enter.....well too bad. Teehee.
Posingly yours,
CG |
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| Look I'm a Meg Bauman Poser!! |
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| 07:04pm 26/11/2003 |
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Since Meg's the COOLEST I'm taking all the quizzes she did...
You are Spearmint.
You are quick-witted and sharp. You pay close
attention to details and you can tell what your
friends are feeling. You are always the first
to understand a joke and you are valued for
your insight and advice. However, you
sometimes isolate yourself from other people,
afraid to share your own feelings.
Most Compatible With: Cinnamon
Which Tic-Tac Flavor Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
Any Cinnamons out there? ::wink wink::
My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
brought to you by Quizilla
Gee....how....accurate?
hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.
What Sign of Affection Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
You're Mysterious Eyes. All in the title. You're
independent, secretive and mysterious. You
appear cold and distant, but hey, at least no
one messes with you.
What type of eyes do you have?
brought to you by Quizilla
Who are you? No one would even know your name or
who you are. No one may even know what you
really look like. You would be known by a
series of names since you would go under many
aliases and have a number of disguises. You are
very clever and creative, and would almost
always be one step ahead of the authorities.
You would make sure no evidence of your
horrible murders would be left behind, and if
it is, no one would know it was you. You
sneaky, elusive person...authorities would have
hard time trying to catch you. You would
definitely be the mystery criminal. People may
not even know the your killings are all from
you. You would really be a threat to the
public.
What Would Your Serial Killer Name Be? What Would the Public Know You As?
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| .C.A.I.T.L.I.N. |
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| 12:11am 24/11/2003 |
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C You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
I You are always smiling & making others smile.
T You have an attitude, a big one.
L Love is something you deeply believe in.
I You are always smiling & making others smile. (Yea I know.....sorry I have two I's in my name...)
N You like to work, but you always want a break.
Okay....your turn. |
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| Born to be....bound? |
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| 02:13pm 23/11/2003 |
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Bondage movie! You're into BSDM (Bondage &
Discipline, Dominance & Submission) and chances
are, you're fond of whips, chains, harnesses,
and tight leather outfits. You like to mix a
little pain with a LOT of pleasure, baby!
What kind of porno would you star in?
brought to you by Quizilla
Violently yours,
CG |
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| Just a typical Saturday night........Or was it? |
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| 12:17am 23/11/2003 |
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Tonight I went to (1)_________ and we (2)___________. We had a lot of (3)_______ and we also ate (4)_________. Next, (5)________ showed me some skills and proceeded to amaze me with (6)____________. It was really (7)___________ when (8)________ and then (9)____________. Then it was time for me to (10)________, so I (11)__________ and (12)_____________. Finally I (13)_________ and then (14)__________.
Fill in the blanks and dazzle me with your wit and creativity. Best story of my Saturday night
gets published as my next entry AND who knows what else you'll win!? It all depends on who you are....*wink wink*
Anticipatingly yours,
CG |
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